Saturday, August 25, 2007

Stress is good for my house.

I have been tackling all manner of housekeeping duties in recent days, and the result is:

  • A house that is clean and tidy, in every room, and every closet.
  • Home baked muffins and bread (two french loaves going in the oven this morning).
  • Wholesome meals from scratch breakfast, lunch and dinner (no frozen or pre prepared junk here!)

Anyone who really knows me will know that while I can keep a house reasonably tidy, I am by no means fanatical about it and, a) it doesn't last long, and b) it will be either a clean house or the cooking - not usually concurrently.

All this in the name of keeping myself so busy that I don't have time to worry about Baby J. It works to an extent, but you know I can't help having those fleeting moments of worry (okay, sometimes not so fleeting). I flip-flop from focusing on how well his understanding of language is developing, his babbling and his obvious ability to hear, and focusing on his 'issue' as something that may be minor, to panicking that it is not something minor.

We have seen the ENT specialist, for all of 10 mins, only enough time for him to scan the audiology reports and concur that there is cause for concern and for him to order CT scans and blood tests.

So, more waiting. More uncertainty. More fear.

We go next week to the Children's hospital for these tests.

I do oddly feel more settled about my ramblings on whether or not to return to work, or to move house. God has a way of bringing what's important in life into sharp focus and suddenly all those trivial things mean nothing. I know the best place for me is to be at home with my kids right now, and I can't imagine the additional stress of having to take Baby J to see all his 'Ologists' while working at the same time! The aesthetics of our house, or in fact where we make our home, seem so unimportant now, too.

To those of you whom have asked for updates - that's where we are, no further on really, just more waiting. But hey, at least my house is clean!


Deborah said...

Wow Annie - want to come do my house!?

Sorry you're still fretting... hang in there, things will get better, as I've said before you are in the right place to get this sorted.

marye said...

Keeping htings in perspective and your eyes on God is the main thing, isnt it?
Sounds like you are doing great. I remember when we walked through that type of thing.. :)

wakeupandsmellthecoffee said...

I always feel better when my house is tidy too. It gives me a bit of control in an uncontrollable world. I hope all turns out for the best for Baby J. But at least you're on the right track for doing something about it.

Doodaddy said...

A tidy house is a great foundation for great things to come. Well done!

Jackie said...

Hope all goes well for Baby J. Sending warm thoughts your way.

Absolutely Bananas said...

I'd like to offer up MY house for the next time you feel stressed!!!! :)

Not Afraid to Use It said...

Having a clean house is a great way to feel better. I hope you get some good news at your appointment. I enjoyed reading your blog--I plan to be back. :)

Candace said...

I've been through a lot this year hospital wise with both kids.
It was a big WELCOME TO PARENTING hitting me over the head. Hard to believe we could love something so much and the worry it causes. sounds like you are a fantastic mama.
how old is your little one???
I am also a florida stay at home mama not irish but married to an irish guy.....

WhatWorksForMom said...

Wow, do you have anything left to do? That's quite a lot to get done!

I'm the same way I worry about what I can control to keep me busy from what I can not. All will be okay!!

Brillig said...

Well! That is certainly a silver lining!!! I bet my husband wishes that there was a wee bit more stress around here.

All my thoughts and prayers are with you and your little dude right now. please keep us posted.

And hey... your site looks different. I've been keeping up on your posts through google reader, but I haven't actually been to your site for a while. Looks fantastic!

myminivanisfasterthanyours said...

I'm new here. I found you through In the Trenches. We've just started dealing with the straightening on of the house, everything needs to have a place if it's going to stay, and let me tell you, it's NO FUN!!

But I'm looking for a false sense of control, and I'm okay with that! At least the house will be clean!

andi said...

Hi Annie,

Sorry I'm late on this - I haven't been around in the last few days. I'm very impressed with your wifey skills. Too bad I am not in possession of such skills, but I guess that bread is not going to bake itself (how cool would it be if it did?)

And as for your sweet boy, I do hope everything goes well. Keep us all updated - you are in my thoughts.

Christine said...

On perspective...we are selling our home right now (tired of being strapped with this HUGE mortgage) and while at times I am so sad (I thought this was the home our grandchildren would visit us in) I just keep looking at my kids and reminding myself that this is JUST A SHELL.

PS: found you through cre8.

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shauna loves chocolate said...

Perspective is always good. Relish the silver lining! Hope all goes well with Baby J.